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Archive for the month “October, 2012”

Broken

Tearing everything up so as to begin anew

Trying to hold on to what was because even if it hurts, it brings comfort
Knowing that letting go and admitting the pain is the only way to rebuild
Feeling, love, hate, hurt, remorse, pain, regret, joy
Wondering how it is possible for one to harbour all these emotions
Thinking of the masterpiece that could have been
Soaring above the greyest clouds
Walking on sunshine even on the darkest of days
Wishing one was more guarded and not such an open book
Dreaming of a future where everything is black and white with no traces of grey
Torn between the decisions of the heart and the mind
Praying but hoping that prayers remain unanswered
Taking time to sow hoping to reap in the future
Asking for the patience to reap what has been sown
Waiting for a knight to come and save the day
Knowing that the wait may last a while
Staring at a sink full of blood
Bearing through the pain hoping to find healing
Remembering that though lost for the moment, the way home is never forgotten.

In my eyes

In my eyes, a story is told. A story of how sad I am, how I just wanna cry out at the frustrations that the world will throw at me. A story of how happy I am and how I am bursting at the seams wanting to shout out my joy. In my eyes a story is always told. xx

Taking stock

Some people believe in looking back on the past chastising themselves for the things they feel they did wrong and thereafter trying to atone for the reproachable behavior , in as much as this may have worked for some people, it has never worked for me. I truly do well believe in the motto no regrets in life just lessons learned.

So for instance I was with someone for almost four years was convinced wedding bells were surley the next step that our relationship would take but life had other plans. I dont look back on that and say wow thats three years of my life I will never get back. No, but instead from each fight I took a lesson, from each kind gesture I took away a lesson , from each episode of mistrust, I took away a lesson. 

As for the accident that apparently should have ended my life (again, God has other plans) I took away vauable lessons about family and friendship.Yes, even one of the most horrific traumatising things to happen to me as an adolosecent I found a lesson to take away from. oh and that I should be more patient when crossing the road (LOL)

They (dont ask me who) say that the best person to give advice to someone is some one who experienced the issue first hand.They also say you cannot truly comfort a person unless you feel thier pain. I concur with them, who ever they are. I try as much as possible to limit the advice I give out to situations I have experienced myself, because I believe that you can never truly understand unless you can relate.

WAIT!!What was my point again?? or right, taking stock.  of what exactly?? your life, where it has been , where it seems to be headed, where you want it to be headed. it is very important to once in a while take stock of all the lessons learnt and put them to good use . People tend to do that at the end of every year and then give themselves resolutions which they never stick to and they end up disappointed with themselves at the end of the year and promise to do better the next year. Not me . So the next time you are asked why you doing something that you never did before or are going out of your way like never before, a good answer is always “People change , I have learned”

And as you take stock , you will realise that your life may not be working out the way YOU planned it, but thats ok :).xx

 

 

 

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